Our Power of Fear Leading to Closeted Gay Bi Married Husbands
Power of fear is at the basis of all negative emotions and actions. It is why we lie, why we argue and have to be right all the time. It’s the reason behind some people’s needs to be in control. It is the reason why people steal and the list goes on and on. Controlling people are just very fearful people. They may project a strong fearless front but that exactly what it is, it’s a front. They need to control their environment which generally plays out into their relationships as well because they become anxious or fearful if they things are not within their comfort zone. I believe by knowing this about people it can empower you because you are likely actually stronger and less fearful than they are in reality. Fear is the reason also of course why people choose to go into the closet, get married, developed a family or a house with a white picket fence in the SUV parked in the driveway and parked next to our BMW’s otherwise referred to as status symbols.
A quote from chapter two of my memoir, “Forbidden Love with a Married Man; E-mail Diaries,” “typically, most children are brought up in a society where finding love in the opposite sex is bred into them. They are taught to start a courtship, which will eventually lead to marriage and later on, children, a house with a white picket fence, a dog, an SUV and a double income family.”
Fearing that we may lose the love and companionship that all humans need for healthy emotional survival on many levels, because society has deemed this so. I believe it is a healthy and productive exercise to whenever you are feeling dis-ease or discomfort to know that it is about fear. Therefore it is important that we take the time and trace back through our thoughts what it is that we are in fear of that is causing this discomfort. Generally what we fear is the not knowing of the outcome of a circumstance which is again why gay people generally go into the closet at least at first. Some obviously for longer periods and end up following social expectations and marry causing more victims of our fears. Being fearful can lead us to be deceptive and dishonest in our communications with others, leading to closeted gay Bi married men.
The most unfortunate issue about this is, we then don’t really have truly open hearted, rich and fulfilling relationships with people leaving us lonely in our private thoughts. It is when we interact with people using our hearts we become less fearful and have more joyful lives. Leave the brain to math, science and technology when it comes to matters of relationships. Use your heart openly and without fear as best you can. It takes practice.
Most generally what we fear as I stated is the consequence of what may happen if I were truthful. The consequence is almost never as bad as we expect it to be. We need to ask ourselves what is our greatest fear if I am honest. What is the very worst thing that can happen we need to ask ourselves? Can we then survive the consequence of being truthful about our true selves and our true thoughts? The answer to that is, of course we can survive. There may be a period of discomfort. Even serious discomfort but we will survive. People that choose suicide rather than being truthful about their true selves are choosing a permanent solution to a temporary problem.
It is also a self act because it leaves the survivors unable to heal because they will always wonder what they could have done differently to prevent the tragedy. Always remember is not always necessary to be right. To we want peace or to we want to be right? Pick your battles carefully and use civility throughout the conflict resolution process. Never name call. That is about control which is another word for fear. Our fear in conflicts in not being right is generally about looking or feeling foolish. You actually look more foolish by maintaining that you are right when it’s obvious that you are not and you are being foolish if it is a silly disagreement anyway. Be true to yourself and you will then be able to be true to others. For those of you that cannot build up the courage to come out to those you love and are a integral part of your lives you are cheating yourself and them of really knowing each other’s hearts and souls. When you are out you will not have to edit you life anymore which is not only demeaning but exhausting. Your true self has just as much value as anyone. So come on people. Start asking yourself some of these questions. You can handle the outcome of the truth when it is revealed I promise.
Dennis J. Schleicher